Sometimes things just work out.

Ah, a rest day. I've done my least favourite turbo set twice in a row.

It is based on short intervals at max, then not quite enough time to recover before the next hard effort. The last 10 to 5 seconds of each effort is spend wanting to scream. I'm at that point where everything is telling my legs to push down on the pedals, but I feel no reponse. The brief recovery is spent hunched over the bars.

As a day off at the weekend is rare, we had friends rounds, and I pretty good with the drinking aspect, but certainly ate too much of the wrong things. L can only blame myself for cooking it in the first place. But it is nice to relax and I tried not to talk just about the attempt. Although it is what everyone asks me about.

I didn't get into the Kent 25m TT, so I'll be hiting either the A31 (Bentley/Farnham/Holybourne) or A24 for my training tomorrow. To be honest I'd like to have some turbo time, to guage effort and sustainabilty over time, but I have to stick with the coach's advice, otherwise I may as well coach myself. I'm due to meet up with him soon and we have a lot to discuss, but he thinks we are on track. Of course I feel behind, but I'm impatient for results.

I sometimes post on a forum, I don't get much time and would rather up date this blog. but it is interesting how willing people are to make assumptions, judge and offer criticism. May be I need a thicker skin or just be less genuine, honest and open, but that isn't me. If I have a short coming or I've made a mistake, I want to know, but in the past that feedback has only come from people who know me, colleagues mainly. Strangers judgments seem to either really hurt or spur me on, but always trouble me.

The truth is no-one can really know how much I dedicated to this record attempt. And although I may not have reached the required fitness yet, or planned everything to the nth degree, what I have done is immense. Just shifting child care for example to allow for extra training, getting comitment from friends to man the feed stations, drive the support car, provide back up wheels etc.

The trouble is there is still so much to do, now while I think I have enough time, it does plague me that everything isn't finialised. Of course much cannot be decided until I have ridden the route, and that is what I really need to time for. But in the back of mind, the actual ride is such a huge task, the spacing of the feed points, and what is handed to me is secondary. I'm going to be suffering for a very long time that is what I'm preparing for.

Things will be in place in time I'm sure, I probably won't know whether every decision is right until it is too late, I can debliberate all  want.

Time to pack my bag for the early start tomorrow, and put the pedals on the TT bike.